Happy B'day!

(about the pic the photographer said-A teddy bear sitting on a grave of a women called "Paula". I don't know her but based on her year of birth, I'm guessing that the teddy bear was a gift from a grandchild)

There is a girl who lives in house in front of mine, 

sweet n simple but with a heart which is divine.

When things are not right... all u need is her sweet smile. 

For it to become a special day jus be with her for a while.

She knows the sense in stupidity... 

Can make even a toothache a calamity!

She wants to b a child when she grows old... 

Got the spirit of hurricane, no one can keep her on hold.

She is the one who made my life pretty easy

 n she hates it when i say the word 'busy'.

hey nutty, my tooti-frooti, there something i want to tell u truely... 

No matter wt u think bt i belong to u already!

plea for death!

i don't know how or why

but i did something 

which i ...didn't meant to try

i don't know

is it false or true 

that i am

already in love with you

i meant to

stop and wait

but i fear it to be

too late!

i don't know wt to do,

i trust you!

but am I 

being true?

you put it all so simply

but for me it's not that easy

dun ask me questions

dun gimme a choice

kill me for once

n my soul is for you to rejoice!

i can't give my heart alone.. u gotta keep my soul!

Ca⋅dav⋅er⋅ous life!

I miss living my life...

The way I used to smile...

The way I used to cheer up and say hi

To the faces known- unknown who use to pass by!

 

Now all I think is about loss

The borrowed pain and the imposed gloss

The cruelty being wrapped in morality

The evil face of my own divinity

 

The face which looks back from mirror

...is not mine!

The eyes are same but they reflect shame

...instead of shine!

 

When my own people touch me... 

I don't feel a thing!

For a moment I do see them smiling

But then I blink!

 

It’s as if I am watching my life

...from a glass door

They are calling my name

..But I could hear no more!

 

I am beating the glass, asking them for help

They think I am being snobbish n giving them hell

They r going away n all they feel for me is sorrow n despise

I am helpless n weak but they leave me crying

 

It is not even a nightmare

It is real... it's the animal in me and is alive

I am scared, am panting inside and screaming

Gimme back my life...

 Gimme back my life!

oh man.. when it happened? i feel so trapped in myself... i want a escape.. i want out!

i must be damn crazy that i posted it here!!

Don't fall for something you can't have, 

but heart never listens.. It does jus that!

All day long all i do is miss you.. 

N it's too scary to know how much i love you!

Dream of u in the nights,

think of you with the dawn.. 

N when i feel lonely inside 

it's your name i mourn.

I keep listening to our love song... N get alive with evry beep on my phone.

Do u think of me nw n then... Dial my num n cut again? 

Realizing Hw crazy m about you disgusts me... 

M jus carrying a few rags in the name of dignity.

I can live without u for sure bt it's nt easy anymore...

how am i to forget something etched on my heart 'n' soul??

Y we have to fight against solipsism's truth n vanity.

Y it can't be.. Jus u n me?

Lets just stop this hurt game.. Be mine n let me be yours again!

Be mine n let me be yours again!!

A Beautiful Good-Bye!!!

Who were you?

A longing chime or just a name…

A humble smile or just a game

You made dreams come true in a single day…

How could you be the one, who crushed them once in every way?

 

It was never proper when we said ‘hi’

Why I am feeling nostalgic while saying ‘bye’?

How you manage to ruin things

N they yet seem right

Are you a magician?

Or I got problem with my sight!

 

I don’t know, is it about perceptive?

Or life is in habit of using such complex adjectives

That the moment you think

You know it all…

They tell you to wait,

Coz it just wasn’t your call!

 

You make me wonder n you make me cry

And I bet I would never meet other such guy!

This day I am keeping as a relic for life

And let me tell you… I just love your smile!!

I don’t know if we could meet again, ever

But this one will always remind me of you… Sir!

 

A Stolen Nexus

I promise to stand beside you,

For all it takes…

And you told me everyone has left you alone,

 In the middle of the way!

 

All I want, is to see you smile,

Just to hold you once and make you stay for a while!

All I end up giving you is a shoulder to cry,

And hearing about people you want by your side.

 

That’s what you do to me,

When ever you come and we talk.

All I hear is about people I don’t know,

Even though it’s u ’n’ me taking a walk!

 

How am I to tell you, things I want to say?

You never try to take a step forward, just keep standing on the bay.

As much as I want you near me, I find you going away.

Am I trying to build a dream castle of false hope and dry clay?

 

Stay with me… please stay!

I steal the ties you have with others to make a bond with you!

I am a thief who steal the blood for her heart!!

End to a Beginning!

I do not know why…
Things happen as they do in life.
One moment there are flowers and sunshine
In very next, smile is pronounced as crime.
I do not know what goes wrong…
Why do I always fail to hold on?
Why all I try to catch is always smoke
Why relations die without any further hope.
If nothing matters to me
Then why my heart aches…
Why my all promises made to self
Now sounds so fake
Where should I go to ask….
What went wrong?
My world crashed in a moment
Even without the hint of storm

It hurts, it hurts, it hurts damned... who you think you are... you know everything... Do you... No you don’t. You don’t and I promise you’ll never do. It hurts you ****** it hurts like hell… how easy it was... wasn’t it… to say “I got some work” and go. I have tried once, now I’ll just nurse my ego.