Monday, December 15, 2008

i must be damn crazy that i posted it here!!

Don't fall for something you can't have, 
but heart never listens.. It does jus that!

All day long all i do is miss you.. 
N it's too scary to know how much i love you!

Dream of u in the nights,
think of you with the dawn.. 
N when i feel lonely inside 
it's your name i mourn.

I keep listening to our love song... N get alive with evry beep on my phone.

Do u think of me nw n then... Dial my num n cut again? 

Realizing Hw crazy m about you disgusts me... 
M jus carrying a few rags in the name of dignity.

I can live without u for sure bt it's nt easy anymore...
how am i to forget something etched on my heart 'n' soul??

Y we have to fight against solipsism's truth n vanity.
Y it can't be.. Jus u n me?

Lets just stop this hurt game.. Be mine n let me be yours again!

Be mine n let me be yours again!!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

A Beautiful Good-Bye!!!

Who were you?

A longing chime or just a name…

A humble smile or just a game

You made dreams come true in a single day…

How could you be the one, who crushed them once in every way?


It was never proper when we said ‘hi’

Why I am feeling nostalgic while saying ‘bye’?

How you manage to ruin things

N they yet seem right

Are you a magician?

Or I got problem with my sight!


I don’t know, is it about perceptive?

Or life is in habit of using such complex adjectives

That the moment you think

You know it all…

They tell you to wait,

Coz it just wasn’t your call!


You make me wonder n you make me cry

And I bet I would never meet other such guy!

This day I am keeping as a relic for life

And let me tell you… I just love your smile!!

I don’t know if we could meet again, ever

But this one will always remind me of you… Sir!


Monday, October 20, 2008

A Stolen Nexus

I promise to stand beside you,

For all it takes…

And you told me everyone has left you alone,

 In the middle of the way!


All I want, is to see you smile,

Just to hold you once and make you stay for a while!

All I end up giving you is a shoulder to cry,

And hearing about people you want by your side.


That’s what you do to me,

When ever you come and we talk.

All I hear is about people I don’t know,

Even though it’s u ’n’ me taking a walk!


How am I to tell you, things I want to say?

You never try to take a step forward, just keep standing on the bay.

As much as I want you near me, I find you going away.

Am I trying to build a dream castle of false hope and dry clay?


Stay with me… please stay!

I steal the ties you have with others to make a bond with you!

I am a thief who steal the blood for her heart!!

Saturday, August 30, 2008

End to a Beginning!

I do not know why…
Things happen as they do in life.
One moment there are flowers and sunshine
In very next, smile is pronounced as crime.
I do not know what goes wrong…
Why do I always fail to hold on?
Why all I try to catch is always smoke
Why relations die without any further hope.
If nothing matters to me
Then why my heart aches…
Why my all promises made to self
Now sounds so fake
Where should I go to ask….
What went wrong?
My world crashed in a moment
Even without the hint of storm

It hurts, it hurts, it hurts damned... who you think you are... you know everything... Do you... No you don’t. You don’t and I promise you’ll never do. It hurts you ****** it hurts like hell… how easy it was... wasn’t it… to say “I got some work” and go. I have tried once, now I’ll just nurse my ego.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Anam Cara

You never know when it starts
And a stranger makes way into your heart
You think of her and smile
N keeps wondering about the same long after saying good-byes!

You don't know how she looks
You wonder is she someone form a fairy book!
On the other side of your pc she shows surprise
N you can still see the sparkle in her eyes.

When you hurt her and behave like an oak
She pretends as if it was just a joke.
She sting as a bee in a deadly move
But add humor to make it smooth.

It's awesome that what a chat can do to you
You start smiling while listening to blues.
You hold yourself a moment longer
To make the longing inside you stronger.

She says I keep her on the bay
Should I tell her I want her longer to stay,
How much I fear to loose her someday
So I am making it harder today.

I know what I am doing is just not right
But loving someone gives me fright
She would never know how much is on stake
Because she says good bye to me every single day!

- to my net friend!

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

To S

Sometimes words just lost their meaning n seems like what they actually are " just words"! I am not surprised that I could not think of a single word to say to you! All I have for you are my bare emotions n feelings.
So every time I think of you.. I smile, for that stupid, bubbly child who just babble all day long and want everyone in the world to know wt she has to say.., but I couldn't say a thing!
Every time you are in trouble.. my heart aches for you.. I stand far away from you n watch you cry.. coz I want you to heal , without any scars, I stay there with you.. But I couldn't say a thing!
whenever you tell me about your joys.. I feel honored.. coz you are someone who trust me without any reason, any question or asking anything in return.. that is the present you give me everyday.. I am humbled and want to tell you same.. but I couldn't say a thing!

when I hurt you.. I do without feeling guilty.. you feel bad n hurt.. i know.. but what you give me back is always a smile.. u forgive me always.. then I feel guilty.. but I
Couldn't say a thing!

And When I finally say something to you.. I criticize you.. Coz that is wt I know best to do.. You always hear me.. N try to make things right.. Then I wonder should I be happy that you made it again.. Or should I curse myself coz neither you deserved my rudeness nor you should have changed yourself.. You always leave me speechless..!

You are like the first light of dawn which gives hope n promise.. But take away the security of dark.. My loneliness away from me.. I am a loner.. I hate real people!
You are like the music I love the most.. Bt the same makes me cry!
You are the gift given to me.. Bt is too fragile!
It's a curse to have you as my friend.. N yet it's the only thought that make me smile!

Tell me what should I do about you?

Thursday, July 31, 2008


Never been in love before,
So I don't know for sure
are you the same guy I have been searchin all my life??
Are you the one?

In the whisper of the night
With the moon so bright
I often wonder who'll take me beyond those skies..
Are you the one?

I am no angel or goddess
But want someone to treat me as
For whom will b my all truth and lies..
Are you are one..
are you one..

Are you.. The one!!

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

A Treacherous Heart

I am sure that wasn't love
I wonder, then why it still hurts?
I know you weren’t the one for me,
So now why I am feeling so lonely?

Why my heart ache to have you back
Why you seem as the piece of my life I lack
Why I still want to call you late in the night
What is happening to me? It’s just not right.

Do I love you?, No. but I am just not ready to say goodbye.
I still wish I could stop you, I could hold you tight,
You are going away and I want to cry,
Because with you I can't live, without you... I can't survive.

Thursday, June 26, 2008


I wonder would you smile,
If I bought you flowers,
Would you keep it in a vase?
Or ask me to put it in your hair.

I wonder would you come,
If I ask you out.
Would you let me hold your hand?
If I try to reach out!

I would like to take you to a beach,
To watch setting sun and wave’s fall ‘n’ rise.
Would you let me watch your face?
As you stand, solving mysteries of stars in the sky.

I wonder would you say something,
When you understand what deep in my heart lies,
Or would you wait for me to tell you,
As if it was a, yet unknown, surprise.

I wonder would you smile…

Friday, May 9, 2008


You are the last thought when I drift to sleep at night..
N when I wake up in mornings I feel your arms around I curdle back to sleep.

Not able to do a thing properly coz what am I thinking is you…day n night

N when I see stops as if it’s the end of eternity.. I stand still observing the every moment you make.. The way you move your hand while you talk..seems like a dancer is into a spell of his greatest moves..

Every time you blink your eyes.. Its like the birth of a new dream, new hope, new vision…

Your lips move when you talk as if your are whispering the darkest secrets of seduction in my ears..

When you smile.. I see heaven with its divine beauty which is incomparable to what human eyes could ever see..

N then finally when you look at me.. I see a sudden spark in your eyes which tells me I am the most loved women ever born n ever will be.. Without any need of promise

You stretch your hand towards me.. I walk towards you without taking my eyes off yours..

I give you my hand.. You hold it like its your lifeline..

You pull me closer.. Makin me snuggle to your side.. N jus hold me there!

People around us see us together n talk about how good we look together..

But what they can't see, I found unguarded in your eyes..